I haven’t been to the doctor yet. It seems she’s booked up until September. Nor have I seen a nutritionist, since there were no slots available for appointment times until the end of August. Not that I’m going at this alone – you’re all here, reading these posts every time I make them. This is not just a comfort, but an encouragement. Seeing the sheer number of people coming out to support me after last week’s water weight debacle was astounding. Still caught in my frustration, I didn’t reply, but I want each of you to know just what that meant to me.
It meant not giving up. It meant people were out there, cheering me on. It meant someone gave a damn, and sometimes that’s enough to push a person forward. So this is me, moving on!
This is me, righting the wrongs.
First Order of Business: Cancel the GoFundMe campaign. Those of you who gave, who helped, you’ve earned your own elite class of sainthood in my mental microcosm. I’ll be putting up a thank you page soon, and each of you will have a place of honor there. Those of you who donated anonymously, well… I know who you are, so when you see that page say “Anonymous Donor”, you’ll know it’s you, and I’ll know it’s you, and that’s what really matters, isn’t it? Seriously, if I could put a bronze statue of each of you in a public place to let the world know how you helped, I would.
Who wants to hold the water bottle… forever?!
Good thing I can’t. None of you are as cute as these four.
Anyway, the GoFundMe campaign and those who donated (along with the one fine gentleman in San Jose who bought me a juicer out of the blue) are the core reason I’ve dropped fifty pounds since starting this whole mess just two months ago. That’s something you guys did, and something to be proud of. I lost more than ten percent of my body mass because of you.
But… now I know better things, like that my support structure shouldn’t be build on cash, but on people, on folks who care. And while cash donations were a good way to say “I care”, sometimes the words of encouragement – like the wonderful woman in Minnesota who still emails me every time I post – are even better for my heart. So keep commenting, keep emailing me, keep messaging me on Facebook.
Second Order of Business: Get a lock and get the trike out of the basement. Seriously, it’s doing no good there, and while it proved a pain to ride at first (it literally wore me out after only a block of riding), I’ve been dong a lot more exercise lately, and should be better prepared to ride.
Not exactly my trike… but a man can dream!
Eventually I’d like to be riding my trike to the gym at least a couple times a week, or a similar distance, anyway. We’ll see how that goes. As it is, my last ride took me all of a block before I found myself too worn to move, and stumbling back into the house came complete with a long-term knee injury. Fun stuff, right? Maybe for someone who likes a good pratfall, but my knee still complains from time to time.
Third Order of Business: Work on a life outside of just getting healthy. For the last couple months, getting healthy and losing weight have dominated my mindscape. They’ve been pretty much part of every thought and action in my life, except for those few times when I considered cheating. (I didn’t! I can say with good conscience that the whole juice diet came off without a single problem.) But sometimes you need more, and right now, part of that more for me is getting back into a hobby that has been part of my life since the fourth grade.
That’s right… role-playing games.
Four geeks, a handful of dice, and a dragon walk into a bar…
Sitting around the table with a bunch of fine folks. The dice. The maps. The adventures! Sometimes it’s a huge hassle, but most of the time it’s more fun than you can shake a boffer sword at, dangling participles included. Right now, I’m building a campaign using Fantasy Flight Games’ new Star Wars: Edge of the Empire system, and it looks like it’s going to be a blast. Some of the people we’re playing with are new to me, some are family, some are friends. And that’s sort of the important thing about RPGs to me, the opportunity to build new relationships and strengthen ones that already exist. It’s also a great creative outlet!
For those of you who don’t understand role-playing games, think of it like cooperative storytelling with a set of rules that help decide how the action goes. It’s like playing Let’s Pretend – you know, when you were a kid, running around as Cowboys & Indians? Sort of like that, only the action is determined by die roles and narration rather than kids with cap guns shouting “Bang, you’re dead!”
Oh, come on. With the exception of some of you younger folks, surely you played Cowboys & Indians.
Yup, totally politically incorrect…
I know I did, though I suppose with today’s focus on political correctness, we should call it White Guys With Guns Stealing Land from Native Americans. As kids, we weren’t that nuanced. Instead, all we wanted to do is play, play, play. And why not? Life would be so much better for everyone if we went into it with a playful heart, don’t you think? Anyway, role-playing games. I’ll be keeping track of this upcoming campaign on another site of mine – Nevermere – but there’s nothing there yet but the framework for a wiki, so just save it for later if you want to check it out.
Fourth Order of Business: Interestingly, this is the first of these that’s really about business. And it dovetails in with the previous paragraphs, too, which is nice! You see, ever since we first got together back in 2003, my amazing wife and I have been designing board and card games. Thing is, we never really got any of them past the concept stage. Oh, we made cards and boards and used pieces, but never really did anything to actually produce a game. Well, we’d like that to change. Or I would. I guess I haven’t really talked much about it with her lately, but I know she’s been wanting to do more with this for a long time.
We have some great ideas, and we want to find ways to make them public.
Great ideas include light bulbs!
At some point soon, I’ll make some kind of announcement here. I’m excited!
Fifth Order of Business: Oh, look, more actual business business! Short and sweet… it’s time to set up the studio. If I’m going to be serious about doing some voice-over work, it’s time I got off my duff and built this darn thing. The only stumbling block right now is going to be the lack of an ISDN line, but I’ll worry about that after I’ve recorded a demo reel.
See? Short and sweet. Like cheesecake.
Final Order of Business: This one is probably the most important. For the last few months, we have been unchurched. This isn’t a bad thing in and of itself – after all, I still have some issues with the modern incarnation of Christendom that I simply cannot reconcile – but in the past when we were without a church home (in the sense of a group meeting in a building), we still had a group of believers with whom we interacted. You know, iron sharpening iron. We haven’t found that yet here in Wichita.
This is a problem, both for me and for my family, so I (as the leader of the family) need to do something about it. What that means, I don’t know. Go back to an established church? Unlikely. Street preaching, and going from there? If that’s where God wants me, yes. Starting a group right here in my home? Maybe so, but let’s face it, I’m gruff and sometimes confrontational, or at least that’s how I seem to come off. A young man (who I respect very much) at the last church we attended told me I was abrasive and malicious. (I am abrasive. I don’t try to be malicious – I try not to be – but apparently I failed. Granted, I was going through a stressful time, given that I had just lost two of the most important people in my life.)
The point is, I don’t know what direction God has for me yet. Maybe I need to learn humility. Or joy. Or patience. I don’t know.
Patience is not my strong suit.
All I know is that spiritual health is as important as mental or physical or social health, or maybe even moreso, and it’s something I can’t ignore. I wouldn’t mind hearing some thoughts on this.
Anyway, that’s about it for today. I just had to rewrite the whole last half of this post, because WordPress decided to lock up and not let me finish what I was writing, so I’m going to cut it short. Or long. I guess this is a long-ish post, right? So yeah, I’m going to cut it long.
Have a great day!